Are You Living From Your Heart? Part One
Updated: Nov 13, 2019
The past couple of weeks have been a much needed wake up call for me.
It started with super fun weekend with my husband, after several months of intense learning and development. Then came a sore throat. Next came the tightness in my chest and finding myself in bed for several days. Whilst being horizontal I felt an overwhelming pull to return to my heart centre. To return to loving thought.
I was on the cusp of opening my doors to new clients when suddenly all I wanted to do was to focus on my own spiritual development. To ask for guidance from The Universe and to recharge my own energy.
My intuition was shouting from all around, “LISTEN TO ME!”. So I have. I have reduced my 90 day work plan to key essentials and moved a lot of my plans into next year. I have completely re-focused my time and energy.
My word for 2019 has been Wellbeing. I committed to making myself my priority. Self-care. Self-love. Self-worth. Self-compassion. None of this is self-ish.
Life has taught me I cannot give my best if I do not feel at my best. 2018 had been a tough year and was a painful reminder of this.
By looking after myself I have seen significant growth in all aspects of my life. It has been wonderful. We moved to a new house. I started a new job. I started my business. I started a coaching course and training as an NLP Practitioner. I started cooking new things. I started running further than ever before. I have taken part in spiritual and business programmes. I have joined new communities, and made new friends. I have felt stronger and more powerful than ever before. I have changed. I have transformed.
I could never have predicted all the wonderful ways in which making myself a priority would pay off.
So, this brings us to my intuitive wake-up call.
For the past several months I have been in sponge mode. I have been absorbing and processing so much learning, in my coaching/NLP course and business programmes, as well as up-skilling myself in order to up-level my business. In addition to that, we have had house drama which involved moving all of the downstairs upstairs, in order to have a new floor fitted. Chaos ensued.
I don’t know about you but I throw myself into everything that I do wholeheartedly, whether it is study, love, work, or personal development. I do not do things by halves. My approach combined with the all above resulted in overwhelm creeping in bit by bit. Slowly I was sliding out of alignment. I had started over intellectualising things which should have come from the heart. Do you know what I mean?
As soon as the voice inside me acknowledged that I needed to return to Love a huge weight lifted. I hadn’t realised until that moment how out of alignment I had become. Then in one swift realisation I suddenly fell back into flow. It was such a revelation.
This past week I have been committed to spiritual study and practice. I have focused on client work and my learning. I have also committed to not taking on any additional work. All my choices have felt in alignment.
It is that word “felt” which I believe to be so fundamentally important. Intellect has its time and place but to find what feels good, that is what we should work towards.
In order to serve others as best I can (whether that be The Universe/God, family, friends, peers, clients or strangers) I know I must continue to seek, learn and grow so I can continue to find what feels good to me. So, that is what I will do.
The other week my word for 2020 came to me in a flash. FEARLESS.
As I mentioned, I am currently in sponge mode. I am assimilating so much knowledge and up levelling week by week. History has taught me that when this happens I will get to the point where all the learning comes together and…BOOM. I know at that point everything will fall into place and wonderful things will happen. It is exciting and scary all at once.
For example, one of my focuses for the remainder of this year is to prepare my new podcast for launching. I LOVE how this makes me feel. It lights me up brighter than an over-decorated Christmas Tree.
My podcast will be about community, about confidence and about feeling in flow. I already have an incredible line-up of amazing women who I will be speaking to, about their own purposes, careers and aspirations. I believe it is so important to share our stories and to recognise that none of us are alone and, most importantly, we are all capable of great things and making a difference is this weird but wonderful world.
However, I have no idea where to begin. All of my old stories came up to the surface. Thoughts like:
I am not good enough
Who am I to think I can do this
No-one will listen
It’s such a silly idea
I will make a tit out of myself
I will fail
The list goes one. I have more lists too, all bursting with stories clinging to my hopes and dreams.
Fear sets in.
The fact is, nothing miraculous ever came out of an easy ride, wouldn’t you agree?
Change brings discomfort. I believe that to be a given. To get through that discomfort we need to choose Love over fear.
So, for 2020 I will be fearless. I will choose love. I will continue to seek, learn and grow to find what feels good and to be in flow. Only then, I believe, will I truly be of service. Only then will I find peace.
Are you living your life from the heart, and a place of love, or a place of fear?
Next article: Are You Living From Your Heart? Part Two